LaNa's PaRaDiSe

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2007-04-14T00:41:00.000+08:00

As wat emelia(my collegue)said, when she reads my blog moslty are the sad story of mine.. Ya bcoz the reasons are when i was sad and mad i think the best way for me is to blog so that wat ever inside is out and i felt abit release.. And that is the only way i express my feeling and thoughs.. Coz i dont have a close friends now whom know wat i felt and hear my problemz.. I only have my fiancee but mostly of the problemz are about our problemz..
I felt depressed when he say things that hurt my feelings but i know wat he say is for my own good bt can he be more polite and say things in a good way rather then say things harshly and hurt my feelings.. Maybe he things my feelings is not important, and the important is for me to change.. But seriouly i can't change to be like that.. Just take as an example.. The person who is inside the jail whom make a crime or so on when they out of jail, they can't find a job and the employee give no chance at all to them then say things to hurt their feelings rather then giving them a job and chances.. Would they want to change? Can they take it? Maybe some of them only will and the others will repeat their mistakes and crime again..
And watever i say is always wrong thats where the issue came and we fite about it..
Eventhough u say i not wrong i know deep inside u, u say is wrong thats why we fite.. I really don't know who is rite.. Maybe i should just be somebody else and not b myself..

Good Friday .. Hopefully everything is good

2007-04-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

Today is a public holiday.. But too bad i still have to come to work tomorrow but good thing is half day.. Hehe.. Today me and my dear went out to town to watch movie and just window shopping but he manage to grab a jeans @ HMV.. We watch Mr Bean's holiday very funny movie.. But not that good la the movie..
Everthing is back to normal after two days quarreling.. Haiz.. Hope what ever he convince me is true as i trusted him..

Missing my grandmother

2007-04-03T15:05:00.000+08:00

Today i felt like i miss my grandmother so much... Wanted to visit her bt then there is some problem with my granpa and my mum.. Haiz i miss her alots seh.. i will be visiting her this week or next week...

Early Month Headache

2007-04-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

Today @ work have alot of things to do.. To submit all the monthly report and so on.. Have some problems with the technician as they have their own attitude problemz.. Some of them did not turn up to morning meeting as their reasons were on leave la, mc la.. Haiz.. It is starting of the month and i have to submit the report but they did not return back to office and give me the reports.. How i wanna make my things done.. Then job not done b4 going for leave, did not inform which things haven't do and then the sales people call me and say this nt done la, that not done la and ask me why.. Haiz.. Bt was ok after that coz i ask one of the senior to talk to them... Hope this things will not be happening again.. Making me a Headache..

Weekendz

2007-04-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

This weekend was his off day and my saturday off but too bad he has to work becoz his collegue is on leave.. I was a bit dissapointed but itz ok we managed to go out and spent time together.. Today we went to service the car @ Bukit Batok and then we went to westmall and have a late lunch..
This M1 wireless broadband really attract my attention when they promote to us.. We decided to buy it as we can share the broadband coz he got a new laptop too.. So the whole day we were trying the thing on both our laptops coz there was some problem with his laptop but no problem on mine and we was trying to figure is out..

Fed up with my life

2007-03-17T03:54:00.000+08:00

I have fed up with my life.. I know life have to be ups and downs.. Problemz and problemz.. Sometimes when people changes for good people don't realize and only my friends who close to me realize.. I know if i change for good is for my own good.. But.. Haiz.. Why must he do this to me if he just want to make me realize of my mistakes i have done last time towards him.. Why can't he just give me a chance for him to be cheerful like last time rather than he makes thing worse and see wat i want to do to make him happy.. Sometimes i felt like it is not fair where else he thinks itz fair bcoz he want to make me think and work on it.. But as he ever think how i felt if he scolds me shout at me and say things harshly.. Maybe he don't know yet i'm a soft hearted person.. My emotionally will easily get affected whenever he says thing about me.. I don't think that is the right way to make me change and listen to him.. When im at home i had problem with family and i'm ouside i had problemz with him.. And then who gonna make me smile and happy.. Just remember one thing watever u say to me pls think twice.. If you think watever u say is right u won't say things to kutuk me(i know u tak mengaku), threaten me, and worse thing say things affected my family.. Nasib baik dalam hati aku masih ingat tuhan dan bersyukur ape yang ade sekarang if not i won't want to b in this world anymore..

300

2007-03-10T17:47:00.000+08:00

Im working half day today and went to Jurong Point to buy ticket to see the movie tonight with my dear.. He wanted to see the movie 300.. When to see with him in the evening after he finished work @ JP.. The movie was great!! Worth it to see.. And also it was our first time to see movie with the cinema all full and all seats taken even on the front row..

Haiz..

2007-03-09T17:26:00.000+08:00

I don't know wat is with me today.. I cannot wake up in the morning whereas i slept early yesterday.. I cannot hear the alarm clock and also i look at my hp there was 9 miss call from my dear.. I was abit late to work bt i managed to reach work in time..
He's angry with me bcoz of this small thing like i wake up late.. i didn't do it segaja i just dont know why.. He though i sleep late last nite and i lie to him that i sleep early.. I just dont understand its not my mistake and also i don't know he was angry with me through out the day till i found out during my lunch time and we fite.. Itz not wat i want to wake up late and i get scolded my him.. Haiz...

Bad Day

2007-03-06T19:04:00.000+08:00

Wat a bad day we got yesterday... We went for dinner, then as usual he sent me back home and unfortunately he drop his car key on the lift hole and guess wat it really goes in the hole although the key is big.. Both of us were damn shock and dont know wat to do as we are tired and wanted to go home and this thing happened. My parentz asked to call emu technician of the lift but not sure whether they can help us cause they only repair lift or any one jam on the lift.. The good thing they are willing to help us and they say they will be there at 11.30pm.. We just wait for them.
Another things is when we get the key he was excited bt then his car cannot start bcoz of the battery flat. He opened the hazard light and that cause it to flat.. OMG we were just sitting and trying to start the engine like every 30 mins till late nite around 1am he slept my place till next morning he went to work.. I'm so sleepy and tired too coz i got a lot of work just now in the office..

I know itz a bad day for u dear even after this thing happened still have some more things happens again but sabar ini semua dugaan...

Feeling so terribly scared

2007-02-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

What happened to me last nite, is a big horror to me.. I just cant forget the way he show the temper at me.. I was damn scared, shaking, and cry like hell.. Only god knows how i felt.. Everytime i remember about wat happened yesterday, my tears drop and i'm feeling really scared till now..
I'm scared it will happened again or more worse in future.. I can go crazy, i dont want to stay at IMH pls..

Don't undestand the movie

2007-02-11T20:22:00.000+08:00

Went out to watch a movie at Marina.. The movie Bable was so complicated and we really dont understand the movie at all.. So dissapointed watching..

Nervous and scared

2007-02-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

My first day at work as an Admin Assistant was good.. Great i loike the job!
My first day i already have to answer the calls and complaint.. Arghh i'm scared and nervous..

I got a new job already!!!

2007-02-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

Went for two interview today and after that in the evening, Wendy from one company called me and said i got the job already and asked to start work tomorrow.. Omg i was so damn happy! I was just smiling alone in the bus.. Hehe.. At last i got one.. I really need a job badly coz time past so fast as i need to have some saving for next year.. Alhamdulilah doa ku terkabul..

My New Little Kitten

2007-02-04T19:34:00.000+08:00

My dear bring back a kitten home from his work place.. It was so adorable!

Malaysia Trip

2007-01-28T14:38:00.000+08:00

Went to Malaysia with my parentz and my dear taking travelling bus for one day.. Went to Tanjong Pia which is the corner of Malaysia and ate seafood by the sea and then shopping at Jusco.. Very tiring day as we were in the bus most of the hours.. Thanx dear for buying me clothes all.. Luv u much!

So PaInFuL

2007-01-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

I had this ulcer inside my mouth near my gums.. It was so painful.. I can't eat hard things and also can't open my mouth wide.. Four days past and i have decided to when to doctor just now.. Doctor say there is a infection and she knows it is very painful.. I hope it will heal soon coz i really have no appetite to eat although i'm hungry.. Argh stop the painful pls...

Sentosa trip

2007-01-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

Went to Sentosa today with him. We took train all the way to Sentosa. I'm the one who want to take train instead of going there by car. Coz i wanna ride the new train to sentosa.. Sentosa was nice and still with some renovation here and there.. Have seen the new cafe de mar bar and restaurant at siloso beach, nice place to chill..

Felt so miserable

2007-01-24T11:51:00.000+08:00

I don't understand why must i understand ppl whereas ppl don't understand me..

Bob Odeh BirThDaY

2007-01-20T16:47:00.000+08:00

When to his nenek's house for some gathering in the evening.. Wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to adek the 'Bob OdeH'(Bob the builder)Hehe..

Bdae Wish

2007-01-19T16:51:00.000+08:00

Happy Bdae Yaya!! Wish u all the best for the future.. I know u have gone through alotz of things in the past.. And i hope to be with u in the past to help and accompany u as i miss u so much till now.. I'm very happy that we just get to contact each other recently since last 4-5 years back.. Looking forward to meet each other soon and catch things up..

Hopes

2007-01-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

Have not been blogging this few days, busy finding job and when for interview and also playing the sim city game when i'm bored at home..
Today i went for interview at hp.. In the afternoon they called me saying i got the job.. I'm happy but i have to consider becoz it is a contract basis which they give me one year contract.. I'm actually looking for permanent job.. When for lunch wif Carol coz she is working there..
In the afternoon i went to one of the agency who get for me an interview tommorrow.. Was so happy after i heard the company is KeppelFels.. I really hope i got the job..
I don't know and confuse whether i want to work at the hp or i want to wait for awhile to get a job after i interview at keppelfels tomorrow..

Still Waiting

2007-01-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

When to job interview at See Hup Seng company at tuas yesterday.. My dear take leave and accompany me to there.. Good thing he's there to accompany coz when we was walking, there are two dogs following us i can't imagine if i walk alone.. Hehe.. Thanx dear..

Still waiting for some company to call me.. At the mean time still search for job.. Argh so damn bored sitting at home!!

Things that hunt me

2007-01-04T14:49:00.000+08:00

Many things had been hunting me this few days.. I'm still finding a new job.. I have to pay my previous work place back.. Problems with my grandparentz and auntie(mother's side) still haven't settle yet, still saying bad things to our family. Some problems with my dear..

When to CDC to get a help from them for job matching yesterday.. And they asked me to go to an interview today.. The interview was ok and just waiting for their reply. Another company from bank called me just now, and ask me to go for interview tomorrow.. Alhamdulilah hopefully i got one of e job..

Talk to my family last nite till late nite.. I don't know why they are keen to do that to us.. When were they realise dia mistakes.. I don't care anymore sesunguhnya allah yang tahu segalannya dan menyedari mereka..

About him.. We've been quarrelling this few days even for one tiny things.. But everything when smoothly after that.. Ini semua dugaan yang aku harus terima,I think ini baru permulaannya..

Don't know watz in his mind??

2007-01-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

New yEAr

2007-01-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

When to my grandparentz house(both sides)..
Was thinking and planing where to go for the countdown.. My Cousins Aidah planned to go to power sation at vivo city there.. Wanted to go as planned with her, kak yatie & my brother.. But then my dear disagreed about it as he said he don't want to go clubbing anymore.. So we just go vivocity and itz starts to drizzling.. Was abit bored though bcoz because we can't go up coz we don't have the ticket.. And we make our way to Mount Faber,hoping that we can see a firework up there.. And yes we did.. But the esplanade one is more nicer and longer..

Wishing everyone Selamat Hari Raya Haji and a Happy New Year!!!

FIre!

2006-12-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

When for dinner wif parents at delifrance... Yummy nice food.. I loike..
On e way back home under my void-deck, we smell something is burning.. Itz like an electricity burns.. We know somethng is happening.. Bt then we don't see anything is burning until my mum realise there is a fire at 12th floor opposite our blk.. Oh gosh the fire was so big at the master bedroom. I don't think so there is a person inside the house and maybe they when for holiday.. The room is so horrible with everything burning and the smoke was so thick..

After the fire had put off by the fireman..

Ego..

2006-12-27T00:28:00.000+08:00

I don't understand why people are so ego..

My EnGageMenT DaY 24.12.06

2006-12-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulilah everything has pass smoothly.. Things happened before and after majlis.. My mum and my tears drop before and after the event starts.. Was so sad with my relatives and my grandparentz(my mother side).. Why are they doing this to us..

Feeling so damn nervous and scared on that day.. Would like to say thanx to whom attend to the majlis and also many thanx to all my cousin who help me on that day especially yayah, nini, bibik, auntie bagum and the rest of my couzins and my adik sedare..
Was abit dissapointed with the catering and mak adam i chosen.. Abit cock up..

MyseLf & the nervous face.. Hehe

My FiAnCe's FaMiLy

Sha2 & Me

One day left

2006-12-23T11:42:00.000+08:00

Everything had already past i've make a mistake in a first place.. Problemz from my former work place making me worry.. Bt itz ok juz wait and do wat we have to do later...

Everything had already settle and prepare where i left with one day before my engagement day.. Dap dup dap dup rasenye..
Hope everthing is going smoothly tomorrrow..
Hope i can smile the whole day and forget about worriness in me thinking of alotz of thing..
Hope my grandparentz came(mother's side).. very hope for that three..

Thanx dear for helping me to take some preparation(gubahan) from my nenek house although u're tired from work.. Luv u so much!

New DaY

2006-12-18T17:23:00.000+08:00

Today it has been a new day for me bcoz i'm not working in my former work place.. I guez everyone was shock about it.. Pity so much to terrence.. But wat to do..

Now i'm juz focusing on my engagement day tis sunday... I don't realise it is soon this week.. OMG.. Thanx to my auntie and uncle who prepare for me somethings.. I really appreciate wat they have done to me.. Still no news from my mum side.. I'm so sad.. I luv my grandma and grandad so much, i wish they will be coming thiz sunday if not i will feel something missing.. I don't know how long they want to 'merajuk'. sob sob...

HAPPY BDAE!!!

2006-12-16T14:57:00.000+08:00

Wish my mum and my auntie(my mum's twin sister) a Happy Birthday!! Moga panjang umur n dimurahkan rezeki...

i'm feeling sick and restless.. But still have to go to work.. Itz ok tomorrow is my last day working there..

Family dispute

2006-12-15T13:32:00.000+08:00

Been busy and forgetting to blog this few days.. The date is getting nearer.. Everyone thinks it is going smoothly.. I've received alot of 'dugaan' from my family before my engagement day starts.. I don't know why they must do that to me, my family and cik ni.. Itz like never ending since we are small.. I don't know wat i did wrong.. Thanx to my parentz, my family my father side, my brother and kak yati who give me 'semangat'.. I'm so sad and dissapointed of them.. Watever it is, i juz stick to my planz coz itz me who thinking of my future and so on nt them...

Juz some news..

2006-12-08T03:00:00.000+08:00

Still can't sleep after work till now.. Juz surfing the net and updating things...

Was so shocked to hear the news just now at work.. Two of my company head of department had already tender in a same time.. and also some of my collegues also going to put a letter soon.. I though i'm the only one who had plan 4 tis month bt then some of them too.. i don't know wat to say and don't want to say no more..

Last past day i've meet my close frienz.. It have been so long since i met her.. But get to talk to her for awhile only.. She tells me bout her life and wat happened to her... Pity her so much.. But wat i see her, she strong in facing the problemz..

iTz my off day

2006-12-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

Spent the whole day wif him.. In the evening we when to Tanjong Katong to meet my parentz.. When to House of Colose where i do the catering and the mak andam for my engagement day.. Juz came down to choose my dress for the day.. After dat when for late dinner..

New Hp & aLsO fOunD tHe riTe riNg

2006-12-02T03:54:00.000+08:00

Itz my off day today.. Waited for him to finished work after 3pm then we when out to town.. He just bought the same hp as me.. So we got the same phone.. Hehe..
It was so crowded juz now.. Itz been a long long time since i went to town especially on saturday.. The lights was beautiful and lovely..

I found my engagemet ring at taka jewellery.. I loike it so much!! Thank You my DeaR!!!

BeIng BuSy

2006-12-01T03:42:00.000+08:00

I have nt being updated my blog as my schedule is so ketat... After all the discussion and confirmation of the engagement day.. I'm so happy but then i have to do and find things fast coz the date is nearer.. I have done some in 2 weeks i guess.. All the majors things i have done so i'm not worrying too much.. Mak adam, catering, cakes, some hampers for him was already booked and confirm.. Many of my cousins and friendz are shock with the news.. Hope it will go on smoothly..

Was DAMN peace of with my company management.. Itz getting bad to worse each day.. Pity so much to Terrence.. But then i just can't take it the way they are... I have to leave soon before christmas starts...
Itz my important day on that day and they can't let me go on that day then i think itz nt worth while to be in that company any more...

PaReNTz Meeting SeSSion..

2006-11-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

After discussing and do all the talking with my parentz, they agree and decide to do on 24th December.. Hope it is not too last minute coz still got one month to prepare on that day... Today will be the day for his family to datang my house for merisik.. My autie and uncle was all informed .. My grandparentz will be at my house today.. Good things i'm working afternoon today so i will not be at home.. See how it goes today.. Hope it goes well and smooth..

I'm feeling dap dup dap dup.. My heart beating fast and i wake up early today and can't sleep anymore thinking about this..

2006-11-20T03:08:00.000+08:00

Had a big dinner at west coast wif him.. We were so superb hungry.. Kenyang giler seh after dat.. When heading back home, lina(ite frienz) called me and ask me for my address to sent her engangement invitation on christmas eve.. Happy for her.. Talking about engangement, i've been waiting to seat together with parents and talk about my tunang.. But it seems hard coz i hardly see my parentz coz i working afternoon shift.. When i back home frm wrk itz already late, they are sleeping and when i woke up they already left to work.. And at last today i got e chance to discuss wif dad about it..

2006-11-19T02:54:00.000+08:00

He was so angry @ Farid(my collegue).. I'm feeling so sad and scared when he show his anger while driving.. Farid should'nt say that infront of him.. I don't take it so serious coz i knw farid was joking and didn't mean it.. After a tiring day working and happily can't wait to meet him and it turns to be bad coz we were fighting about this.. Try to cool him down bt the more i say he seems getting more mad at me.. I don't know wat should i do sometimes..
I just keep quiet coz i think thats the only way to cool him down.. Itz hard to cool a hot tempered guy..

Have not recover yet..

2006-11-15T04:53:00.000+08:00

People might be sleeping and dreaming at this time of hour while i'm still awake and blogging and update some things.. Coz i can't sleep yet.. And also me not working tomorrow.. My stomach problems have not recover yet.. Was so weak and pain today.. So hungry bt no appetite to eat.. The worse thing is so busy at work this few days... My dear pick me up from work today although he was so sleepy.. He pack for me some of her mother's cooking that is 'sambal tumis telur' that is my favourite.. When straight home and ate was so hungry.. Thanx to him for so caring towards me..

2006-11-11T04:11:00.000+08:00

Spent the whole day at his place coz itz Comel's wedding.. She was pretty on her wedding.. Wish her luck in future with her husband..

I was not feeling well that day coz i had stomach cramps and also diarrhoea on this few days and felt so weak today... Feeling so uneasy..

Click here for pictures on her wedding..

2006-11-08T14:52:00.000+08:00

Lawrence had left to Genting Highland again for 1 week for holiday and also his gambling.. So i have to cover his shift and doing afternoon shift the most.. So bored... And also i miz my dear cannot meet him coz i finished work very late.. Talk to Carol tis afternoon.. Shes happy with her new job with good environment and good income.. Catch up wit her somethings coz we have nt being meeting and an talking to each other for some times.. Between thanx for ur advice carol..

..off day..

2006-11-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

Today is my off day.. Spent time watching vcd with my dear..

2006-11-04T03:09:00.000+08:00

I'm doing afternoon shift and was abit early to work today coz i've got nothing to do at home and had enough of sleeping.. My laptop was lacking tis afternoon, so i when out early..

Me and Christine was doing closing today, it was my first time doing nite wif her.. It was not really busy that we can managed...

~ ooFF DaY ~

2006-11-03T03:03:00.000+08:00

Today is my off day... Had my fullest rest at home coz he is working.. When out in the evening to meet up him to catch a movie at jrng pt.. We watched SinKing JaPan.. Was a sad story though.. The movie ends with the country saved bt the pilots (who save the country) die..
For rating i give 4 stars out 0f 5 stars..

My BdaE

2006-10-29T15:29:00.000+08:00

WHen to Sahara with collegue after work on friday.. was abit boring though..

When out with iz at nite coz he's working today.. Thanx my dear for the lovely present.. Luv it very much..

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa

2006-10-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

I waNNa wish Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims.. Maaf Zahir dan BatIn...

.. For More Pictures click here ..

MaLaM RaYe

2006-10-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

Today is malam raye, my family and i were tidy up and cleaning the house and then help my mum to cook.. Was so tired though.. Then in the evening we went to my grandma house to send some things then we went to geylang with my dear and his family.. My mother just passed her car lessons and she rent a car bt she still nt confident in herself sometimes, so with the help of my dear who drove us to geylang and the rest of his family took van.. When we reach there, there are no parking at all.. It was so crowded..

WHo tO bLamE On..

2006-10-22T03:31:00.000+08:00

Today is my last day working, then i went for leave till wednesday.. Raya is coming tis tuesday, but then once again i had done nothing for preparation.. Was so tiring after back from work.. So i had two days to prepare everything.. i haven't bought my new baju kurung, my heels, tidy up my room and some others..

Was not in the mood this evening... I felt so upset coz ppl had not been picking up my phone call lately.. Maybe i'm too emotional bt i don't think so coz i think when i'm doing the same thing while i'm out or at home, he had been so mad to me.. Sometimes i felt like i'm always the one who calls and bother.. Maybe he had his own reasons why like he can't hear the phone rangs, he was busy or so on and so on.. But maybe he don't think that i used my little time wanted to talk to him badly while i'm working bt he was nt there to pick up my calls.. And he will only returned the calls when i'm busy and nt the rite time..
After all that i thought, i think itz nt his mistakes but then again i don't know who is to blame on..

AfTer a TiRinG dAy @ woRk..

2006-10-18T03:17:00.000+08:00

It was a busy day this few weeks for us working in a FnB.. A day out like today is a great idea though.. Ilah and Salleh had been busy managing the 'kecohrable' cafe, Chee Ming had been busy managing the weddings and high turn over for ballrooms and me had been busy with the 1-4-1 English Hi-Tea and also the Scotland group who had check in the hotel..
Congratulation to Chee Ming and My mum who had their Car lessons..
Chee Ming rent a car for three days and ask us out today.. We had been drove by him around.. We went for dinner after work at Geylang and then we bought carpet and some stuff for Raya.. Then we when to Vivo CiTy, Mount Faber and lastly to EasT CoaSt Macdonald to chill around.. Talking some craps about work.. Itz great to hear from each other coz we are in different department..
I don't know why today there are so many road blocks.. We get stopped three times on the road..

BoriNg LiFes

2006-10-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

Life had become abit bored to me.. As i always working afternoon shift then before.. Sometimes i wonder why? But after that my manager told me the reasons.. Still itz like no life for me.. When my friends ask me out, i can't joined them coz i'm working afternoon till late nite.. So wat i do is just sleep then to work and then sleep unless it was my off day.. And i felt like working over there are getting bored.. And i though of changing my job.. Maybe after i get my bonus i will find a new job perhaps..
I still remember last time i had a trainee from switzerland, before he went back to his country after an attachement in the hotel, he told me not to stay in the hotel too long coz i will get bored.. He open my mindset to look for a new job coz i'm still young.. Till now we are still contacting each other and he still asking whether i'm still in the hotel.. Haha..

FareWeLL!

2006-10-05T08:51:00.000+08:00

Time past so fast.. And now Joahne had already finished her attachment.. She had been a good trainee and friend to me.. I'm working today till 1am then heading straight to their dome coz they had some celebration coz they going back to philipines this morning... Just talking and ate with them then send them to airport at about 5am coz Farid is driving.. She gave me a letter that she wrote.. It was so touching though..
To JoahNe, PauL, RoCky and EdwIn, hope we keep in touch!!
To JoaHNe if u are reading this.. "Ingat Mare, Misna KiTa"

Tiring day

2006-09-27T03:14:00.000+08:00

Today was tiring day for me coz i'm working mid shift.. And i did not wake up this morning to eat something.. Was so thirsty at work coz was busy running here and there.. But i managed to 'tahan' till 7pm 'buka' time..
After work when out wif collegue.. Heard alotz of things and story from my work place.. But i have to keep to myself... Was shocked though..

2006-09-24T03:08:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of fasting month.. Get up early in the morning to eat and then sleep again coz i'm working afternoon.. Too bad i have to 'buka' at work.. But ok la nt bad the food at canteen...

Tiring day.. Need a break..

2006-09-20T05:09:00.000+08:00

It was tiring day for me as my manager off today.. When out after work wif collegues... When to Somerset, thumper then to zouk.. Enjoying myself though.. Thanks to him i found my jacket back..

StaFF NiTez..

2006-09-08T03:22:00.000+08:00

Working 10 -6pm today.. And straight when to staff dinner and dance at the hotel ballroom.. Actually i was thinking of nt going coz many of my department is on duty.. But last minute i went, seating the same table wif chef, thats only fnb table.. My manager joined me later.. Good thing Chee Ming was on duty and incharge of the dnd, the sad thing he can't joined us..
After eating and drinking when to the party world karoake..

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TrIp To BaNgKoK

2006-09-06T03:24:00.000+08:00

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At last the last minutes trip was going fine without us planning it very well coz three of us was busy wif our own work..

It was fun and relax for us where we get rid of work for awhile..
Over there we was juz eating and shopping non-stop..
Visit the sirrijad hospital museum, was so scary and pity to the baby though.. It was a old hospital which is not operating anymore and it is now a museum for ppl to see.. Inside there was a baby feutus, skeleton, bones, skulls and etc (all of them are real )..
Eat a lot of spicy foods and Tom Yam Soup... Shopping for me is nt enough bcoz have alot of things to buy and alot of places to go..
And lastly we watch the tiger-show.. Watch the real world..

Wat a Sad NiTe i HaD yEsTerDay...

2006-08-23T02:12:00.001+08:00

Even words can't describe how sad i'm yesterday.. I cry the whole nite.. After the thingy dat i knw which told by someone in Msn, i felt so wrong and sorry..
After i had a conversation with him, i felt better.. Coz i let it out go and he tell me everything.. But i guez both are not wrong maybe bcoz of situation and also fate..
Can u imagine a guy which had being tolerate wif my so kind of attitude for years and after dat had been cheated by me; who still wanna be with me eventhough he got someone who waited and wanted to be wif him..
I'm lucky to have him back eventhough i have done so many mistakes towards him..
Many thanx to him and i appreciate wat he have done to me!!

Second thing is about my belove cat "girl2".. Last nite after crying about the tragedy happened that i have mention above, when i was about to close my eyes and relax myself, i heard my dad shouting, and say that my cat falls down from the window.. Oh gosh, i was so panic and my tears drop again coz i know there is no hopes for her anymore coz i'm leaving on 15th floor.. The whole family was sad.. She is so bubly and lovely towards us.. Whenever we call her she will always come, whenever we say and scold her she will always follow instructions and just keep quiet.. Instead she's so close to me and wake me up in the morning.. And now she's gone out of our life.. Miss her so much!!

She's gone.. :<

As i think back things...

2006-08-22T03:04:00.000+08:00

Just abit busy when doing closing at work just now and people rushing me when things are not done.. I was abit mad though..

I found out things.. Why must my life always like that.. I'm so sad and i guez i deserve it all... i don't know which is rite and which is wrong.. and i'm in between.. I'm very pity of her and i know how she feels..

Missing you guys!

2006-08-21T01:57:00.000+08:00

Today was my off day.. Juz chill at west coast Mac..
Sometimes i keep remember about my past life.. I really miss my secondary school matez, ite schoolmatez, outside friendz and all the trainees at my work place.. They come and go.. Hope they are doing jus fine..

short break soon

2006-08-19T04:20:00.000+08:00

Everything was doing just fine.. I just hate coz this week and next week i'm working afternoon shift.. I like working afternoon it juz that i don't have the chance to go out.. I'm so bored.. Hmm will go for a short break to bangkok end of this month.. Can't wait for that...

HaPPy 41st BdaE spOrE!!

2006-08-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i've got invitation to the new club opening that is CUBE, it is pure RNB songs.. It is just beside club MOMO.. When there early with Carol and the rest will join us later.. My bro and his gf was also there coz i gave him the invitation card.. It was so fun dat me and carol was enjoying ourselves..

And today when to see the fireworks, was so excited and waited at esplanade there with alotz of crowd but then there was no fireworks at all.. Was so dissapointed though..

The dissapointed crowd at espalnade

Dinner wiF CoLLeGuEs

2006-08-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

When dinner wif collegues and also to meet up wif carol back.. Miss her so much.. Thanx CaRoL for the beautiful bag and also necklace that u bought for me at Dubai.. I really luv it so much!! Was so full and head back home after dat..

She's coming back!!

2006-07-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

Heard from Carol dat she returning back tomorrow.. i hope so coz i miss her.. Actually feeling not so good these few days bt then i still have to go on wif life.. Thanx to Olivia and Carol who understands me so well..
Was abit bored and tired of doing nothing at work.. Bcoz of these Amway group checking in the hotel and they doesn't spent alot of time at the hotel so the hotel is abit quiet.. Good thing i have my new asst manager now to keep me accompany if nt i will be working alone in the morning.. Good thing he's good and can joke around.. He also understands me well..

update about myself...

2006-07-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

Time flew so fast.. Ramun and jorn have gone to philippines for holidays and then when they return they will fly back to berlin coz they finished their attachment.. Carol have flew to Dubai and maybe to Labanon if everything is ok after the bombing.. And she don't know when she will return to singapore.. i'm gonna miss her alot.. Olivia juz came back for her hometown.. Lucky i still have her to talk to if i got any problemz at work.. I have go new asst manager at my work place.. i think itz better, he's oklah.. But the sad thing is Lee gonna resign.. Sad la..

Things have gone smoothly with him.. And i hope it will stay smooth as it is..

Juz felt irritating by somebody who is coward and cc.. Saying stupid things in my tagboard.. I just don't understand wat i did wrong to them.. I don't know why people are so busybody nowadays especially guys now are more kpo then girls.. I hope she or he mind his/her bloody business and get a life then saying people.. Saying me is jus like saying urself bcoz u urself is not rite..

Itz OvEr GeRmAnY!!

2006-07-05T14:21:00.001+08:00

When to the hospital this few days to accompany him to see his father.. Contact back wif him bcoz i felt i miss him and also felt bad after all that i did to him..

The game yesterday i really hope that italy won and they won!!

So DiSSaPoinTiNg

2006-07-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

So dissapointing about yesterday!! Was so happy at first when England lose and Portugal won! But not after the match when brazil lose with france. It is just so dissapointing for me and the rest of the brazil fans.. So now lets see who gonna be in the final!! Is it gonna be Germany, Italy, Portugal or France??

I don't understand with my feelings and life rite now.. It is so confusing and complicated. I don't know wat to do and wat gonna happened..

BRAZIL WON!!!!!

2006-06-27T01:23:00.000+08:00

And today is very very important game for me.. BRAZIL & GHANA.. Ghana is also a good team coz they play very good before the quarter final.. And Yeah Brazil WON!!! Watched the match at Sahara then saw Haseena and the rest of the trainee, after the match finished then we joined them.. And tomorrow is my off day so i can rest and sleep longer and also they are no match tomorrow and thursday.. so rest day for me.. Hehe..

Two DaYs did not sleep

2006-06-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

Feel so terrible and tired at work today coz yesterday watch soccer wif my collegue at sahara then 3am match watch somewhere at city hall.. For two days did not sleep and straight to work but i have slept before in the afternoon yesterday.. Ramun is so so dissapointed dat swiss lose and he was abit drunk and i was worried about him yesterday..
But actually the game was draw 0-0 so they got penalty and ulkraine won the penalty..

FoOtBaLL FeVeR

2006-06-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

Did not sleep today and straight when to work from home because of the football.. It was the England and Ecuador match.. But not really important match for me coz England are not playing so good this year.. They win 1-0 but that is bcoz of free kick or penalty i forget.. And the 3am match was good coz both are good teams Portugal and Holland.. That is really a good game thats makes me awake instead of sleepy bcoz of all the red and yellow cards.. Other then Brazil that i support,I support Portugal but even they won the match 1-0 but i'm afraid they can't make it to final coz they got many yellow card and Deco(good player) also get red card.. And C. Ronaldo is injured and also the gk Ricardo is abit injured..

SIck of LiFe

2006-06-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

Today at work the whole morning i'm thinking of him.. Itz juz make me sad and cry if i think of him.. The more days past the more feelings i have towards him but soon itz gonna be over.. He will be leaving me in July and dats make me so sad.. He just too caring towards me.. And why must he confess his feelings towards me if he know he will be leaving spore..Why must u start when u know can't finished it.. i don't know how and wat should i do next.. This is the second time dat happened in my life.. I'm sick of life already..

Today horoscope of mine

The world out there is pretty astonishing. Open your arms and embrace its diversity. Once you open your mind, you'll see how glorious it is and how many options you have. Let life show you how to be mellow.

Long day for me!

2006-06-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

BesTie & Me

I meet one of my ex boyfriend yesterday nite and we watched soccer till late morning and today i working morning.. Itz ok with me coz it was important game.. And Yeah Brazil won against Japan!!

After work i meet yante my bestfriend.. For so long did not meet up with her.. i miss her so much.. Catch up things dat we left..
Wat a small world, her current bf now is someone i know..

Wait for him to finished work at 11pm.. He is so nervous of the match today swiss and korea..
After the match he is so happy swiss won!!

Tired day..

2006-06-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

Were sleeping so well and nice bcoz of....... The morning at work was so well and after that it turn to bad.. Bcoz i'm dreaming, forgetting things and also wat ever i want to do, i broke it or either the thing fall and slip out my hand.. i think like something bad gonna happened to me.. But i juz forget about it..

In the late evening after work, went to catch movie with him again accompany by ilah, paul, joanne, and catherine.. We wathched silent hill.. Don't really understand the story actually.. I'm so tired after that..

off day!!

2006-06-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

Today is my off day.. i slept till late afternoon coz have not been sleeping so well and long thiz few days until i woke up by a sms.. I was so sleepy and after i read the sms i was shocked and not sleepy anymore.. Hehe.. Actually is a good and also bad news to me.. And i don't know wat and how to handled the situation.. It is so hard for us..

Meet him at orchard to catch a movie and have a drink.. And talk about this.. And i did not .......... after dat..

Brazil won!!

2006-06-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

When to boat quay meet the same crowd again to watch soccer.. It is important game for ramun bcoz of switzerland and france game at midnight and important for me coz of brazil game at 3 am.. We went to penny black then after that to sahara for the brazil game.. We had breakfast after the game and i when back home coz my off day but some of them have to go work bad la.. I don't know why syamsul is acting strangely towards me.. Always say things to make me or ramun angry... Nah itz doesn't matter.. i'm used to it..

GerManY vs CoStA RicA

2006-06-09T20:40:00.000+08:00

When to boat quay wif my collegue to watch the match.. It was really fun.. see the match together,drinking, smoking sheesha and crack jokes! We drink and the drink till the next match at 3am.. And i realised i 'm working morning later and some of them also.. Bad la.. Not enough sleep.. But itz ok as long as he is there and got a chance to spent time with this someone then i'm happy.. Because he living soon..

We are trapped in the situation.. But wat to do life have to go on.. I don't know why guys that i like and i think that i can be with is always the person who gonna leave me.. I'm really tired of this..

Guess wat??? Even MaN goSSip!!

2006-06-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

When out wif aliff yesterday bcoz is his bdae on the 6th june.. Long time never meet him.. Yap he is still the same aliff that i know last time.. Well he is so happy to meet me.. Before going back home he confess something to me.. But i really must think about it..

Ramun message me in the late evening bringing me a bad news.. He told somebody at work told him bad things about me which is not true.. I don't understand why people like to make story and gossip about me.. I'm so damn angry bcoz it affect my personal things.. Maybe people are jealous and nothing else better to do.. Now i know.. Not all guys can be trusted and guys mouth who gossip is more worse than a girl.. Thanks to him bcoz he give me courage and help me with this matter..

BaLi TrIp

2006-06-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

My trip was wonderful.. Words are too long to explained.. I enjoyed every single moment over there..

1st day - Reach in the evening and have dinner @ one of the good western restaurant.. It is expensive though..

2nd day- When to walk around kuta and in the afternoon when to 'tanah lot' after that to have our free dinner and see the sunset @ Jimbaran.. In the late evening we when to 'Paddy's Pub' to have a drink and chill around..

3rd day- In the morning after breakfast we visit to the elephant place.. And in the evening when for the 2 hours spa.. Felt so nice and fresh after that..

4th day- When for snorkeling, boat ride and to the turtle island.. In the evening when for shopping.. It was so crazy.. Each of the shop pulling us to buy their things..

5th day(last day)- Our flight is in the evening so we still got alotz of time.. In the morning enjoy the sun, sand,beach, wave,surfers @ kuTa BeaCh.. Until we feel like we are already so tanned then when back hotel to pack our things.. So sad we are leaving..

2006-05-28T23:31:00.000+08:00

When to MoS yesterday with Carol... I really hate to go there bt seems like carol like to go there so much.. It was so crowded i get squeeze by the crowd i really hate that.. And guess wat?? Was so shocked that i meet Aliff over there.. But so happy coz i actually miss him too..

2006-05-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

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Been waiting for this day to go out with my secondary school matez after almost two year we never meet each other... Had dinner at Pasta Mania then after that juz chill around take picture and juz talking and talking till late nitez.. Wish Zernalynne all the best when she when back to philippines and also to the rest of my matez!!

DrUnKaRd Me

2006-05-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday dinner was good! I loike the atmosphere, environment and the scenery so much! But not really the food.. The food is so limited.. After dinner i went to chijmes wif olivia to have a drink... But we don't realise that we are drinking too much because it was free flow of drinks.. Both of us was drunk yesterday.. Hmm get to know the bartender but we just talk a little.. He ask me to wait till he finish work coz he staying jurong as well.. But i didn't bcoz i'm drunk and i think its safe to go back alone by cab.. But i will wish to go there again to see him.. Hehe..

Already book the flight for next week to Bali!! I can't wait for the short holiday..

Wat A dAy....

2006-05-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

When out for sheesha and a drink at Sahara with Ramun, Syamsul and Raj last nite.. After that Syamsul and Raj when of to club but not me and ramun coz we are working morning today.. It was a short night for me last night, i just sleep for how many hours but it doesn't matter because the coffee machine is just beside me when i at work.. Cappucino, latte and espresso will make me awake.. Had a wonderful time at work today but not when i when back home.. It was terrible.. I forget my mobile when i left to work this morning, and when i when back home after work, my mobile is missing with juz my sim card left..I was angry with my dad coz he said that my brother lent my mobile.. How could he just take my things without my permission.. Was damn peace off with my dad because he did not stop my bro when he takes my hp.. The one i trusted most do that to me!! Gosh! And now i can't read my msg or call someone coz it is all saved at my phone memory.. Itz ok i have learned something from them and i will make sure all this will not be happened again.. i will locked my rooms starting from today..

Looking foward for dinner tomorrow with Olivia & Carol @ Equinox!!
Looking forward for upcoming week for a short relaxing holiday!!
Too bad soon in july my joy will be over and i will be lonely again..

~doesn't matter anymore~

2006-05-16T11:56:00.000+08:00

Days past so fast.. I had a great weekend, great shift at work and felt great coz i got someone to talk too.. Everyone at work is jealous with my shift.. i really like it..
Well i think i shouldn't think of the past so much coz it won't bring me to no where.. My cousin sha2 told me that she likes the way i am coz get rid of a problem so well but actually itz not that easy.. I have suffered alotz thinking but doesn't matter now coz i don't want to think of it anymore.. And i don't care about about guys anymore unless they are my collegue, frien or someone i know.. Juz enjoy the life and follow as it flow..

Feeling so tired!!

2006-05-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

I work 2pm till 1am today.. But i felt fresh when i start work but not anymore in the evening.. Feeling very sleepy and tired even i drink alot of coffee.. Carol when out with Haseena and they ask me out to mos after i finished work.. But i don't want to go i'm tired and i'm wearing so simple today.. Eason also ask me out to mos also.. Hmm i'm so tired..

I called Simon juz now in the evening and he say he received my gift for his birthday already.. He is so happy! But the news about the interview on working in singapore is not out yet.. And i heard a news that Lamberto is that he's already in Dubai finding jobs over there.. That is great!! Wish all the best to him!!

My Off DaY to JB

2006-05-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

Today is my off day.. Me and him planned to go jb today bcoz he took offday on today also... Hmm when we first reached we get cheated by the malaysian taxi driver.. Make sure we don't see the driver again bcoz he ask us to pay alot after he send us to the shopping mall.. Feel like punching his face.. Very bad impression of Malaysia already.. But itz ok.. We continue our day with alot of shopping.. Shopping and shopping! I bought alot of things too.. Then we when to the 'Singah Selalu Restoran' to eat our dinner and smoke sheesha but then the sheesha was not that nice and i felt a bit unconfortable when i'm still around at jb.. Then we when back to singapore around 9.30pm then we took a cab to sahara.. Chilling around drink and smoke sheesha then we when back around 1am.. I did enjoy my offday..

To him.. Thanx for going out me!!

LoNg WeeKenDs

2006-04-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Wow everyone is having a long weekends but not me.. I'm working today.. But i when shopping just to pamper myself after getting the bonus!! I when to city hall and do shopping before i start work at 5pm.. I bought two clothes from esprit, i bought hangbag from GuEss and also bought my working shoe and some things at BoDyShOp.. I want to buy more but i have not much time left.. I'm so happy though..

I have 3 public holiday leave.. I don't know yet when i want to clear..

GoThAm PeNtHoUse

2006-04-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

I'm already started working in crossbar and i love it so much rather in emc.. My interest working in the emc is not there anymore.. Maybe becoz of the environment that is now.. Not like last time and seems like many people is complaining too not juz me.. Today i'm working till 1 am in the bar and carol ask me to accompany her to go out tonight with salleh.. There are going to the new club that is Gotham PenThouSe.. Hmm i meet CaRoL after work but SaLLeh is not there.. We went inside first but he never turn up and when we call he already at mos with his friends.. Carol and me was very angry with him.. Overall i find the club is oklah good also.. We juz seat at the bar and dance a lil bit.. Talk abit with the bartender.. He's friendly though and i get a free drink.. Thanks to him but i will come by again next time to see him again.. HaHa...

DaY OuT To SeNtOsA

2006-04-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

Wow the feeling is like holiday feeling after three days off.. I felt very good after i get plenty of sleep..
When to SenToSa juz now wif RaMuN.. Hmm i enjoy it, but juz that it is raining, very bad experience.. Can't go alot of place.. I really relax my mind.. I felt very good and enough rest.. After that we when HoLLaNd ViLLaGe to have dinner at italian restaurant..
After all i think sentosa is a lil bit bad currently maybe bcoz of the renovation is anywhere.. And the sea.. Yucks!! alot of seaweed!! Becoming bad to worse and the food there becoming more expensive and expensive..

RaMuN & Me

Me with ThE sAnD & SeA

My FrIeNd RaMuN & Me

ChiLL On SuNdAy

2006-04-23T11:01:00.000+08:00

No plan for today and though i juz sit @ HoMe.. After chatting with RaMuN in the msn.. He ask me out for dinner.. We when to little india to have a dinner, without relizing that today is sunday.. Oh when we reach there, damn there is alot of indian people.. Oh i really hate it..
He bring me to one of the restaurant in little india, and the food there is delicious.. Very delicious.. We are really really full! After that we when to SaHaRa @ RaFFles PlAcE to smoke SheeSha and have a drink.. It WaS reaLLy ReLaxing & laZy day for us...

SiMon call me yesterday.. He said that he had an interview tomorrow.. If he passed the interview he will come to singapore and work here.. It is really a good news for me.. I really really hope he passed the interview.. But i think the interview is hard.. Lower chance for him..

HaPPy BdAe CaRoL!!

2006-04-22T11:32:00.000+08:00

Been waiting for the weekend.. First of all wanna wish My BeStFrIend CaRoL KhAzi a HAPPY 19th BDAE!!!

Ask her out today seems like she don't have a mood to go out today.. Hmm then i meet RaMuN.. AfTer that CaRoL call me and decide to go out tonite.. Hehe.. We when to BriX @ HyaTT HoTeL.. My first time there.. I heard there is a live band there..

Then meet HaSeeNa & iLah inside.. Oh I really love the live band!! The are damn good.. They are playing RnB, ReggEa and some blues song.. I like the environment too.. Its Nice.. Should go there again one day..

Me & ThE BdAe GiRL (CaRoL)

HappY BdAe to U!! May your WiSh CoMe TruE!!
Thanx for been there for me.. Thank you for everything.. I will miss working with u..

BraNd NeW mE....

2006-04-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'am doing over time today and David is on duty tonite.. After all that i think, i make up my mind.. I think i wanna take the opputurnity to try working in the CrOssRoAd BaR first instead of resigning.. And i straight tell David, he is very Happy and straight do the roster for next week.. I was happy too, my roster for next week there is not much of overtime.. I loike!! Waiting for another day that is tomorrow i'm working 7-3, 6-11 then after dat no more.. Haha.. Coz i take annual leave on sat and sunday, monday is my off day.. And Tueday i will start working in the crossroad bar.. But i still have to come back to do reservation when olivia is off.. Haiz.. But itz ok..

And i intend to forget about my ex bf, because wat for we trying to make things good but he juz seems to make things worse.. I'am trying to apologies but he juz seems to hate me alot.. Itz ok for me.. Watever he want to says about me,think bad of me and saying me a liar.. Go ahead! people mouth we cannot conrol but as long as i myself know i'm not like that and when i did something wrong and do everything to say sorry but he seems like not forgiving me.. so nothing else i can do.. Juz don't wanna think about thiz anymore...
I want to go on and start with a new life rite now!!

Wat my horoscope tells is true about me today..

"You feel like something's ended, but really, that just means that something else is about to begin. It's time to discard the pieces of a life that no longer suits you. Get ready to greet a brand-new day. "

EasTeR SuNdAy

2006-04-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

SaLLeh(bUnnY), Me & SaRaH

We are having a TuNch instead of Buffet LunCh and BuFFet Hi-Tea.. AnD the resevervation is not that high.. It is so bored.. Salleh is the bunny on that day.. Very cute and funy.. Fite with My Asst Manager again.. Actually i was trying to help the guest instead of her.. the guest is juz asking me some enquiry and then she interrupt me and she jump to conclusion and i interrupt also and she shout infront of the guest quiet to me.. Then i disappear on there.. After that my asst manager is abt angry with me.. After all the incident the guest come to me personally and say thank you for helping me and told she told my asst manager you should not talk to ur staff like that infront of a guest.. Even a guest can know how i feel but she as a asst managerdon't know how i feel... Haiz hard to say la..

WaT OtHeRs ThInks

2006-04-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

Maybe people might think many things about me going out enjoying myself and wat so ever.. But wat people know is outside of me but they don't know the inside.. My heart is crying everyday.. Crying every single day before going to bed.. Thinking and thinking until i get so confuse.. I don't know even wat to do and feel so lonely.. you may see that i'm enjoying my life going out at nite but i'm not.. Watever people wanna think of me let them be.. I don't give a damn anymore.. Coz when i'm sad and lonely no one knows.. Inside my heart is totally mess up.. I don't know watz gonna happened next.. Only gods know how i feel..
Haseena told me every break up will make u more stronger and Olivia told me 'come on move on with ur life, u are still young, you are beautiful and enjoy ur life your date and so on.. ' But i can't.. Itz hard for me..

A NiTe OuT

2006-04-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

When To MoS again.. Actually Me, CaRoL and RaMun wanted to go Momo but SaLLeh wanted to go MoS then we juz waited for him there.. There was a crowd there when we reach around 11+.. Saw one of my collegue who work in kitchen, he treat us a drink.. And guess wat i saw 'rock(Ruyana)' back.. Since 2 years plus have not been meeting her.. She look the same.. We dance and dance till late at around 4 then they wanna have a supper after that but me and carol when back home.. Coz i'm working tomorrow morning..

Carol is flying to K.L tomorrow instead of Hong Kong coz she haven't get her visa.. U take care girl Girl!!

Confuse about my life

2006-04-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Hmm someone date me out today.. Actually i don't want togo for the date coz after the break up i felt like don't want to get involve with anyone anymore.. But Olivia told me dat why not go out with him.. So i can talk to someone and at least i will not be so lonely..
After work, i waited for him then we when to Seah Deli at Raffles Hotel to have dinner, not much that we ate coz we are not that hungry.. After that we when to relax and smoke sheesha @ arab st and we juz know each other better and have a chat.. I felt a lil bit better after chit chat with him.. I treat him like my close friend although he is a new friend that i have.. But i think he is a nice guy and we got some similar things that we like to do.. Only Olivia know who he is.. Bcoz i don't want others to know if not the news will spread in my work place.. And now i really confuse with my life, my heart and myself.. I don't know wat to do next coz i'm resigning my job soon after the bonus.. there is alot of question mark in my mind and my heart..

Farewell to Carol Ghazi, coz she finish her attachment in the hotel line.. Thanx for the gift Carol, i really appreciate it, and now i lose another friend that i close with at work but no worries coz we are living near to each other so we can meet each other again.. Enjoy working with you and having fun with you.. Don't forget to buy me some souvenir back when you go to hong kong this thursday.. Hehe..

This few days someone keep calling and miss call me on my handphone.. And he said i might know him if i call him.. But i i didn't call him coz i don't know him.. He call himself "Wan" don't know weather it is his real name or juz to fool me.. I hate thiz kind of things and it juz made me mad.. Because i play thiz kind of game.. i don't know how he get my number.. Haiz..

2006-04-08T11:23:00.000+08:00

First of all wanna wish Simon HAPPY BDAE AND HAPPY GRADUATION DAY!! Any Happy advance bdae to my brother also!

Today turns to be a good day for me, bt i'm not feeling that good today.. Don't know why keep thinking about things.. Haiz..
First in the morning my collegue Catherine came to me with a box of chocolate and gave it to me and she makes me smile.. Second thing, i get to enter the estee lauder sale that is at my workplace ballroom.. Thanx to my manager, security and the banquet ppl who let me enter coz actually only ppl who are invited with a ticket can enter.. I bought Clinique perfurm and MAC make up.. I was so happy coz it is cheap..
Lastly end of the day today,ilah bought us a ice cream and that really make my day..
But i still felt to bad and sad today.. I don't know and i'm scared.. I don't know whether this is true. There is alot of question in my head.. Haiz,,,

Parcel of LiFe

2006-04-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

Been a long time did nt update my blog.. Was so busy and so lazy to update as usual.. So many things happened to my life.. But i guess that is part of parcel in life.. Eventhough itz hard for me to take it, bt i still have to move on.. : <

My sunday and monday off ..

2006-02-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

Get my sunday monday off after the long week that i'm working back to back shift.. Just sitting @ home facing the comp and facing my cat.. I'm so damn bored.. Missing him so much..

Busy day @ work

2006-02-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today was a busy day @ work and they can't even control it.. It was a big headache for ilah and haseena(my asst manager).. They loose face alot to the guest.. It was terrible.. Everything when wrong.. Good thing i'm doing cashier not host.. But everything when smooth after that..

Olivia speaks to me certain things.. I was shock.. I don't know why everything that i do people in my work place know.. i don't know who to believe.. i'm so confuse.. But wat she say that don't give a fuck wat ppl say.. i think that is my personal things why must ppl want to know and say about it.. i'm so confuse..

Valentine Day

2006-02-14T23:39:00.000+08:00

A day that they have to leave us.. Send them off @ the airport early in the morning @ 6.00.. It was so sad.. The girls is also there and send them off.. And where itz ends..
More pictures of them @ airport..

When out to watch movie then after that to mount faber.. Abit bored coz i'm missing them and also he did not make any plan.. And we juz slacking around.. Not a really good day for me..